回想童年時候 不知道什麼叫憂愁
隨著年歲增多 煩惱也跟著多
許多人忙忙碌碌的追求 卻沒有平安喜樂
再多憂慮也改變不了什麼
你看天上飛鳥 快樂自在翱翔
你看野地的花 如此美麗芬芳
慈愛的天父會養活牠們 牠們就不必煩憂
我們也當像牠們一樣
把重擔都卸給主 我不為明天憂慮
天父知道我雖不好 但他卻仍垂顧我
他醫治我的創傷 他同情有的軟弱
我知道我主掌管明天 我不為明天憂慮
Archive for August, 2011
终于今天到来了，虽然依依不舍，但世上没有不散的筵席。今天妹妹要到美国去读书了。我现在一个人在房间，留着眼泪，决定在送她时，不要哭而坚强的送妹妹走。
我现在在想，今年可能是我活着，流下最多眼泪。一次是当我的老姨过世的时候，另几次是跟朋友分散的时候，好几次是在唱歌的时候，留下许多眼泪，悔改的时候，留下的泪真的是数不清。人们说我是很冷淡的人，但若一个人明白我的时候，是完全两回事。很多晚上，我无法入眠，很有可能因为被朋友的话或行为被影响到。在他们的面前，我通常不会说或做出任何事，因为我很不喜欢因为一时冲动而做出伤害其他人的事，我会把一切带回家，当一个人的时候，静静的烦恼和沮丧，有时若受不了，就会各一天请病假。
今晚，当我独自一个人写下这个刚想，神提醒我这首歌，让我回想上帝为了我们，看着我们的虚弱和失败，不知伤了他的心数次，让他为我们流下无数的泪，但因为爱，永远的关心，爱护我们。
He was there when the stars were hung
He was there when the sun was set ablaze
He was there when the rainbows were coloured
He was there when man was made alive.
You were there when on the tree He hung
You were there when the sun shut out its light
You were there when the cross was stained with blood
You were there when He gave up His life.
No longer just a past
But now it’s here with me
Believing saving faith
Binds my soul with Calvary
And when my heart can’t find its place
I know He’s always here
The promise of living in His care
When life should cease
My sight fails finally
That’s when by faith I’ll see
Hope becomes reality
I know with Christ I will be
No longer the need of hope
Cos I’m with Christ
Faith Reality.
神的小羊
在这几天，当生命到了一个阶段，我问我自己在这个世上，什么东西会在让我有极大的影响，什么会让我感伤，不知不觉就想到这两个字，珍惜和遗憾。
世上人生命如花，
有他起有他落流。
有他喜乐他忧愁，
生命就如此美完。
在他个个天过程，
人会有不同经验，
有他爱他乏味时，
会让人做些选择。
很多时候生命中，
我们可能轻视时，
把那些关怀方式，
不断的不管藐视。
虽然人还是关心，
但神也给人们脚。
让他们在无意中，
静悄悄的离你起。
当失去的时候中，
当到无法挽回时，
当人已经不纯在，
遗憾也已经太迟。
人生是短处的路，
要珍惜眼前的人，
不要以为有明天，
因为这是大谎言。
世上的天长地久，
只有两种的记忆。
就是快乐的珍惜，
或永久苦累遗憾。
神的小羊
今天我终以做个选择，用华语来写下我的感想。
这几天在寻找自己的时刻，我领悟到了怎么把一切放开，不是因为我被逼，而是因为上帝吩咐我如此。放开喜欢的东西不是简单的事，尤其当那个东西你在心上放如此的精神和时间。可能我是比较有情的人，所以要做下这个决心不是容易。让这个感想做我心中的话。
回忆是个非常恐怖的东西，
是我们无法控制无法领悟。
时光会在忙碌中的漂流着，
人也会在时流黄老而离去。
回忆会在我们不想的时候，
在每一步每一个节奏时刻，
经过那些熟悉的地方画面，
让我想起那些美好的时光。
若我说我从来没有想起你，
我是一个说谎的大欺骗者，
但是每一次已到这个时刻，
在眼泪中狠狠的把它打碎。
爱个人从来不是简单的事，
要爱就全心全力的爱下去。
勇敢的把全部的一身换去，
爱的人的幸福和他的安全。
但当该放手的那个时候，
就要勇敢的放开这一切，
因为你爱某个人的时候，
你会让他自由和他幸福。
虽然这时刻会有伤感，
虽然还是会关心他人，
但现在只有勇敢前进，
不会坐在灰尘中苦累。
我还是会偶尔想起你，
想起散场的那个拥抱，
这个选择可能很自私，
但因为爱我终于放手。
上帝的小羔羊
All I really need to know I learned in kindergarten.
ALL I REALLY NEED TO KNOW about how to live and what to do
and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not
at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the
sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:
Share everything.
Play fair.
Don’t hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess.
Don’t take things that aren’t yours.
Say you’re sorry when you hurt somebody.
Wash your hands before you eat.
Flush.
Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
Live a balanced life – learn some and think some
and draw and paint and sing and dance and play
and work every day some.
Take a nap every afternoon.
When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic,
hold hands, and stick together.
Be aware of wonder.
Remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup:
The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody
really knows how or why, but we are all like that.
Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even
the little seed in the Styrofoam cup – they all die.
So do we.
And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books
and the first word you learned – the biggest
word of all – LOOK.
Everything you need to know is in there somewhere.
The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation.
Ecology and politics and equality and sane living.
Take any of those items and extrapolate it into
sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your
family life or your work or your government or
your world and it holds true and clear and firm.
Think what a better world it would be if
all – the whole world – had cookies and milk about
three o’clock every afternoon and then lay down with
our blankies for a nap. Or if all governments
had a basic policy to always put thing back where
they found them and to clean up their own mess.
And it is still true, no matter how old you
are – when you go out into the world, it is best
to hold hands and stick together.
In my life, I always wanted to trust people, no matter what they say or how they may seem because I believed everyone should have the chance and freedom to choose, a right to be trusted. But now this song really summarize a bit of what I truly feel. I really thought I could trusted someone but now, I find it hard to trust anyone, including myself and will force me to build up my defenses against others.
His little sheep
Yup, you saw the post last night- Sad post. Today, I just recount something that happened yesterday which got me to think about priorities in life.
As I was running errands for my sis with my parents, my mum actually commented she was a bit disappointed with me because on Saturday, I didn’t spend the last 2 weekends with my sis. That didn’t really strike a chord because I really a lot of things going on in my head and really that was the last thing I wanted to explain myself or worry about.
But towards the night, as the party ended, I was pretty down and sad. Then as I picked up the things and walked back to the car with my mum and grandma, I walked ahead to recce the path. As I moved towards the entrance, I heard my grandma shouting at me. As I turned back, I realized my mum had fallen, dropping the cake box and things in her hand. Her asthma had also activated. She was gasping for air and was about to collapse anytime. At that moment, I was like stunned and helped to calm her down but all she was worried was the cake had all fallen out and my sis and I may be disappointed. In my eyes, invisible tears actually rolled down. To me, at that moment of time, I did not want anything but just that my mum to be alright. I didn’t care how devastated I was. All I wanted was my mum to be safe and sound. Gaining her breath and balance, she slowly walked towards the car and drove back.
That night, in the car, the struggle of my will with God commenced. At one point, I know He knows what is best for me but on the other, I still wanted to take control of certain aspect. That night was a long and stressful night as the two selves in me were fighting and both are equally strong and domineering.
As I was in despair and without hope, God showed me the light. The light which made me choose to live on in His strength and not to take my life as this is His gift and only God has the rights to take it away from me.
Tears will roll, heart will break, but His love still remains.
Draw me nigh where the cross lay, there shall my sweet resting place may.
Silent cries to You will hear, and my quiet penitence You have ear.
Love not returned though be there, but always in Your glory You declare.
Give me grace to live another day, to choose accept come what may.
To You give the fullest of my life, obedient living to achieve.
His little sheep
When I look into Your holiness.
When I gaze into Your loveliness.
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.
When I found the joy of reaching Your heart.
When my will becomes enthralled in Your Love.
When all the things that surround
Become shadows in the light of You.
I worship You, I worship You.
he reason I live (The reason I live)
Is to worship You. (Repeat)
This was the song that brought me to tears this evening as things were going right at all. When I look upon the Lord’s holiness and see the state I am in, I feel really hurt and ashamed of myself. When I look at His loveliness, I find myself a man devoid of trust and feeling really lost and hurt within and to look on the Man of Sorrow, I really sobbed as He is the one who can truly associate with me loving with trust betrayed, rejected and acquainted with grief. When all things become shadow. True, at moments, things may seem so bad to bear but when I come to think of it, it is better things happen now and I know the true evilness of men than to continue down the road and be entrapped in it. It is truly the Light that shines and makes what is beautiful on the outside truly so vicious and evil within. That’s man, that’s the nature of man. I really can’t find myself worthy to sing the next two stanza because I was doing everything to willfully, refusing to submit to the will of God. how can I say I find the joy of reaching His heart when my heart is so focused on my own personal and selfish goals. My will is so enthralled by my own targets and so fake to say I do everything purely out of love, because it is just so contaminated with my selfishness. I’m really sorry for this willfulness and just want to return where my foundations are and rebuild from there.
“Laughter hide their silent cry, only Jesus hears.” So many a times, my laughter hides my cries from those around me. I thought I could be happy by acting happy when in fact, things are just so wrong. I really need the Lord’s guidance to set the many entanglements that is so choking me to my death.
His little sheep in pain
I guess many will ask why I love this nickname, Yang Meh Meh. To be honest, one thing is I can really relate to this animal because my personality aligns nicely with it.
“All of us like sheep has gone astray….”- I am a person, though brought with principles, will always wander into the wilderness blindly, and just go along with what people say because I don’t want to be left out, I don’t want to be the odd one out, I just want to be accepted but most of the time end up hurting myself.
“Like a sheep dumb before its shearers…” As Kenneth, even though what people do to me, say to me, I somehow will just bottle up and take it on myself, always taking a lot on myself when in fact at times I really feel like voicing out my opinions.
“Sheep by the pastures” As sheep, I tend to love to laze around, not be involved with the daily affair of others. Many a times, I am forced into situation where I am forced to make a move which I really dislike.
“Need a shepherd” Many a times, I need someone to constantly be there to comfort me, to assure me and to encourage me. I do get very easily discouraged and down many times. I need one who truly cares and is true to His word to be always there for me, to guide me as my heart so easily wander.
“A sheep as an offering” To the end, the sheep will give his life for another. It may mean giving up his or her all for the best for the other.
Sign off
His little sheep
