“When deep injury is done to us, we will never recover until we forgive. Forgiveness does not change the past but it does enlarge the future” – Mary Karen Read

A really meaningful phrase at a really prompt time. Sometimes, we are so blinded with rage, irritation and frustration that it really kills not only the opposite party but ourselves. I guess it’s time to forgive and forget though easier said than done. Damage is done, but life has to go on.

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Everything has its season. If we do not pay attention, time may be chunked off at great pieces and you realized it is too late for regrets.
I guess the phrase “Manage time or time will manage you” is a recurring theme in my life now. Assignments are piling and deadlines are nearing. My hair is growing whiter as the days pass by and I have to start moving.
Hope she’s alright. She seemed quite cheerful on Tuesday. Miss her. =<

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So much things had happened. It’s not easy to give thanks to God seriously. Try as you might, but somehow, in the state of fatigue, you just find the surroundings and its thing droning over and over again in our life. No matter how strong a cliff, with the constant attacks of the wave, it grows weaker and weaker each day. Guess that is what is happening in my life. It just started with a bit of conflict. And the constant dwelling and accumulation of other stuff sweeps my feet off the ground in my Lord. Somehow when I realize it, I am already quite deep into the stage of destruction, not of my salvation but my love for the Lord. At this stage, the only remedy is really to go back to the Lord on my knees and get back to His Word daily for His guidance through this very time of madness.

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This sounds weird but rather true. Sometimes what may seem the right thing to do, no one ends up doing it. Guess that man.
After the battle in school, it’s a feeling of dejavu. It is one of those quiz that yes, I can do it, but somehow you don’t feel like doing it. Well whatever the case, it’s over. Have to move on from there.
Had a comforting reply from my principal she wants me back though i am one rebellious teacher back in school. =p
“Setting principles right before rushing into stuff” is one principle I hold dear and hope i will not forget.

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Sometimes, I wonder why this and why that. So much things happen. There is the will of God but it’s sometimes way beyond what my mind can hold and causes me to wonder, just like the children of Israel wondering in the wilderness of 40 years. Stability- No. Lost- Not really. Curious- Yes.

Seriously, I need a break soon or this wondering will drive me insane.

YGN practices up again and it means preparation and prayer.

“Sometimes we love to tease others but blindly forget the consequences that lie behind. What may turn out to be just senseless poking may turn out as reality. Kenneth, please be careful of that.” That’s the lesson of life I learned today.

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Another week passed, my white hair count is up.  On Friday, as I watched up with some of my students in 1A,  one sentence actually caught my attention. “It’s the boring things which we will remember for life.”

I guess there are things which I really hold dear to my heart. It isn’t the excitement, the woo and wows in life that formulate the way I am today. Rather, it was the mundane things which actually shaped and moulded me through the Potter’s hands.

I guess like at home, the chores, the squabbles, the disagreement, the need to watch out for my grandma and sister, the constant sarcastic war with my uncle, etc.  Though at times it seems routine, these were the things that happen to shape my character and personality. Also through all these, I guess I learn to appreciate really my family more, though we do have some personality crashes at times.

In school and tuition, the regular lessons and remedial with my students, especially 1A, are the things which really make me love the calling I am placed into. It wasn’t so much on the pay, holidays, etc. Really, it’s just the love for all my students and colleagues that really made teaching in MFSS something that I cannot forget for my life. Even though I may forget names, etc, but I will remember and cherish the friendship.

Guess in church, with brothers and sisters who went through thick and thin through the several projects, guess God through all these make us realize we cannot be island on our own.

At the end of the day, we have to really cherish what we have before us and not regret when the things or people are no longer there.

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One week has passed in NIE. Yes, there were many lessons that I picked up along the way but one I guess the statement that struck me most was on Thursday, when Mr Woo, our ICT instructor, mentioned that as we get to know the students we are dealing with better, the more upset we get. I totally agree with that statement.

Sometimes, we brand and judge people because what we see on the surface. Let’s be honest, we all do. But as we learn to pause and understand the people and as they open up their lives, we find ourselves in a different dimension altogether, a dimension of emptiness, sadness and hopelessness. Take for instance a student who keeps fighting, defending himself, etc. On the first look, we will condemn him or her for being violent and flaunting the school rules. But when we stop and look into his or her life, we find him or her may be a victim of a far worse thing than what he or she committed. Sometimes, I really feel helpless. I wish I could help but always at times, the things that I see and know as I teach is beyond what we could ever support. The least I guess as a teacher I could do is the give a ear and pray about my students.

Yes, I heard of Jie Min’s case and really it does upset myself, as it does the the MFSS family. We will pray for you Jie Min and hope you recover soon.

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Hi people

Just a quick update.

Yup, two weeks ago closed a chapter of my life as a contract teacher. I put up some of the photos I took on my final day in MFSS. Now from a caterpillar, I will go into cacoon.

As some has heard, because of some unpleasant thing that happened, I will no longer be teacher music. I will have computer application and math as two of my teaching subjects. I did fight with this matter for a while but at the end I gave in as I know if I do continue on, I may lose my career and bring more harm than good, especially to those I hold dearly.

NIE, how I put it, is rather like a time for me to rest than anything else. Think I really needed it after that bad experience. At least got time to do things like play new songs (haha trying on Tears on my guitar), learn the clarinet, etc.  Alright, it’s just a short update, better get back to work or else it will be long night. See all of you

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Nope, not talking about maple story here. (Gave up on it when it crashed my laptop)

Have been pretty tired these few days. Refusing to give myself to sleep when I want to sleep.  Guess there is a lot of things troubling my mind at this point of time. Guess that is what we call the negative impact of stress.

As I clear my table yesterday (yup I finished clearing), a lot of things flashed through my mind. On one side I wished I could turn back time but on the other, I wanted to move on. Guess that’s the controversy in life. (Thanks to my kids in MFSS now I am put in this little dilemma)

3 more weeks to NIE. Trust God and His goodness for His perfect will and plan.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.Matthew 6:34 =)

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Kenneth

Today I finally found time to go catch a movie. I was thinking which movie to catch. After some consideration, I decided to watch  “Hannah Motana”. I would say it was worth the money. There were many songs which I liked but the one which had a ringing effect was “God blesses the broken road”.

I love the line “God blesses the the broken road”. It reminds me that in the journey of life, it is not like everyday is a smooth sailing day. There are times where things become really upsetting, so many setbacks in life and even times where we break down in tears.

It just brings me back to a passage to 1 Corinthians 10:13 “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.” Even the going gets tough, the tough should get going.  We should never give up and keep on going. I know we have heard this so many times but it is apt “Failure is the mother of success”.  Let us move forward

God blesses the broken road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
I wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn’t see how every sign pointed straight to You

That every long lost dream
Led me to where You are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into Your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to You

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I’d like to have them back again
And give them all to You
But You just smile and take my hand
You’ve been there and You understand
It’s all part of a grander plan
That is coming true

That every long lost dream
Led me to where You are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into You loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to You
Now I keep rolling on into You loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to You

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