As I prepare to face tomorrow…..

Tonight, I was really thankful to God for the message. Before going for the meeting, I was really troubled because tomorrow is a big day and I really don’t know how to face tomorrow. So many lessons, with some of the classes which I have a bit of prblems and to top it up, a lesson observation from my maths HOD. To be honest, for the past weeks, I have been really escaping from it. Not intentionally but the thought of it somehow got me really ill. But after hearing the message from brother Roy Hill, I know in Whom I trust and He will be my guide. This hymn really came back to me and was really a comfort to me and really what my heart cries out.

1. Day by day, and with each passing moment,
   Strength I find to meet my trials here;
   Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
   I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
   He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,
   Gives unto each day what He deems best,
   Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,
   Mingling toil with peace and rest.
2. Every day the Lord Himself is near me,
   With a special mercy for each hour;
   All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me,
   He whose name is Counsellor and Pow’r.
   The protection of His child and treasure
   Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
   “As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,”
   This the pledge to me He made.
3. Help me then, in every tribulation,
   So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
   That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation,
   Offered me within Thy holy Word.
   Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
   E’er to take, as from a father’s hand,
   One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
   Till with Christ the Lord I stand.

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If tomorrow never comes…

Back from the Sec 3 level camp. Was really a good camp. Tiring but meaningful.

After a term of continuous working, mingling with a lot of issues and meals with really good friends, reflecting on those things, with of course a lot of obstacles to overcome, I guess I can say God is good all the time even though I failed Him over and over.

As I reflect back on the things that have past, there are things that I am grateful to God for even though I don’t say it

1. For the opportunity to be in Mayflower Secondary School as a teacher.

2. My beloved 1A 2009. My very first Maths class.

3. 3C 2009 which I am really proud to be a co-maths teacher for a term.

4. All the secondary 1 and 2 music classes.

5. Meaningful relationships (students-teacher, colleagues, etc) formed.

6. My dear cadet band =D

7. Dinners with M and R. Thank you dears, you have really been wonderful company to me.

8.  My Da Jie- Chelsea.

9. Definitely my family (Granny, Dad, Mum, Uncle and mei) and god-sisters (H, P, etc)

10. All my friends

11.My cute tuition kids for being my alarm clock on Saturdays

12. My youth group (JB). You guys really rock!!!

13. My CEP group

14. And most importantly, You Lord. Thank you. Without You,  I won’t be even here typing.

I guess there are also painful lessons learned within these 3 months but I will not dwell too much on those. I am thankful for the thorns but don’t wish to bring it up as it is not really edifying.

For the question “If tomorrow never comes….”,

1. I would really cherish those around me much more. I was never born to accumulate riches or to earn fame. I was born to know Jesus Christ as my Saviour and learn to love not only God but those around me.

2. I would really want to have this knowledge that close to me would know the Savior.

3. I would pray and do my best that all my children and family would be taken care of.

As my time is short, one prayer is that my time on earth will not be of quantity but of quality.

(Speaking of which, better get my lesson ready by tomorrow evening or else it is going to be one hectic week -_-)

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His Little sheep

Are holidays really holidays?

This is the one week holiday and guess what… I am sitting at my desk. Ok, fair enough, I am a slacker to be writing my blog but that is after 3 days and 1 hour of continuous marking and file checking. Yawn…. Anyway, I will be going out to play soon. Have to clear my mind because tomorrow’s One Voice Concert. Looking forward to meet my friends tonight.

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His Little Sheep

Paying the price

3rd week back in school, somehow I really am learning lessons.  Really, cannot let my guard down. For those classes I didn’t my eye on, they become really chaotic. For those which I set the tone right, things get through. Though things get tiring, classes get rowdy, hope is out of vision, etc, I guess it’s not the time to quit but really to press on for the Lord and not lose this compassion (though now blurry) I really have for my students. Need to make sure I teach the subject effectively across and they will get through their Secondary school life happily and peacefully.

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What really matters

As I was going through the book of Matthew, I pondered about this phrase, “Be ye perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect(Matthew 5:48).” I also thought about how the Lord really through Matthew 1-15 had the word compassion used at least twice with the Lord.

It was good to just be able to read some books from Towzer because really challenged me really hard. One thing that strike me most was one thing he mentioned Christians today are like soldiers slacking off, hiding behind the rocks and just satisfied sniffing off an wiltered flower. I know it sounds offensive but if you come to think of it, it does make sense.

When we first accepted Christ, many of us were like “Yes, I will do a lot of things for Christ, etc”. But as time pass by, as different things come along, we tend to be just happy sitting around in church, singing the hymns, listening to the message, read through the bible study and comment here and there, etc. Maybe get a wife, have children, earn a living and stop there. Maybe help out a bit of evangelistic event, etc and end there. But really, is that perfect that God wants us to stop there or a disillusion standard we set for ourselves?

How many of us are still thristing for the Word of God and always eagerly searching it as we did before or have we reached to a stage where devotional books are good enough substitute for the pure Word? Has the once fervent prayer of dependence on God become a chore that we just go into the ritualistic prayer? Has our worship and rememberance of the Lord Jesus Christ return into a shadowing thought that we go aimlessly saying “Thank you Lord for dying on the cross” without really meaning it? Has the “Forgive me Lord” sound so empty when we never change? Brothers, if any of symptom is true, it is really time to go on our knees and repent and ask God to heal us from this fatal spiritual disease.

Guess as one puritian wrote The Lord Christ in His prime age could have done so much in His life. But because of His love so great, so immense, He gave His all for the mankind which should deserve nothing but hell.  Can we like the hymn writer echo and express the chorus from the bottom of our hearts

“O! the deep deep love of Jesus, Vast, unmeasured boundless free!

Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to Thy glorious rest above!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, spread His praise from shore to shore!
How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth never, nevermore!
How He watches o’er His loved ones, died to call them all His own;
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth o’er them from the throne!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, love of every love the best!
’Tis an ocean full of blessing, ’tis a haven giving rest!
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, ’tis a heaven of heavens to me;
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee!”

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What will it be now?

Opps, press the enter key too fast.

There has been something about me I really need to change. It is the rash attitude I have. I tend to rush into things or/and conclusions and end up messing up every thing.  This few days, in the staff room, guess what I have been doing was catch up on my reading and also youtubing (+ fb-ing). Another thing I have to break is a bad habit. Really need the Lord to help me with that. Will share the 3 wounds by Towzer I read today in school. Really meaningful.

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His little sheep

Summers days, summer night =D

K, holidays started. Happy =D =D But as teachers, we still need to go back till 14 November. Well, the week has been ups and downs. Guess 1 Cor 12 is my encouragement for the week.

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His little sheep

End of secondary 1-3 paper

0943- Mr Chua: “You have 15 minutes left, please write your name, index number and class on every piece of work. Please write your calculator model on the front page.”

0955- Mr Chua (Whisper): “3 more minutes, 3 more minutes.”

0956- Mr Chua (wags 1 finger), ” 1 more 1 more”

*Drum rolls* literally, from the students

0957- Mr Chua: “Times up!”

Class: “YAY!!!!!!! Woo hoo!!!!!”

Mr Chua: “Wah so happy arh, keep your volume down while I collect the paper.”

0958- Student: “Thank you teacher!!!!”

“Mr Chua returns paper”

Haha, today is the final day for the Secondary 1-3 final exam. Haha, so paiseh, all of them go and and shout and disturb the next class. But guess, tt’s normal human reaction. =)

I guess when Christ comes, the YAY(from the saints) will be much louder. =D

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4 ways they call me 1)Teacher teacher, 2) Mr Chua, 3) Mr Kenneth and 4) Uhm, uhm, sir!

Well, so long a time ago I updated this blog. Too busy I guess. =p Now, I am officially a contract teacher in Mayflower Secondary School. Really has been a wonderful learning experience, especially to go down to the ground to work and teach. 1A, B, C, D, E , F, G, I and 4F/G, really a diverse group of students, haha, really the students play an important role in the teacher. No student, no teacher.  They really are reflection on how you are connecting with them. Thank God really for a good and supportive team of teachers and the students really, though at time some are mischevious and naughty, some really serious, some really boh chap, some really attentive, are really lovable and though at times tiring, I really look foward to think of ways on how to engage them.  Oh those picture were taken during our last I-sport day where we are to keep fit! =D

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Haiz, how?

Well, I really don’t know. It is like a pile of things happening at the same time when I am at my most vulnerable period. YGN, career initiation, IPT, etc, it may seem not really connected but all these add up to time I need to set aside. Another crucial decision at this stage is whether to get attached or stay single. Really the waiting process for the Lord’s answer is good, no doubt, but very stressful as I really don’t know what is His will for me. Well, haiz, I don’t know la, get the YGN and other things settled first and let God through time guide me to the path He has set for me.

Well, ya, there’s someone who I really like but don’t know whether she is the one. The thoughts really drives me sleepless for nights. Haiz, don’t know la. Trust in God bah.

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